You can’t walk in my shoes…The balance between me and you.. aren’t the same.
I’m unbalanced on so many levels..that it balances me out….People tend to think that I’m “weird” on which I say “I know, I’m Loco”…Scatters of laughter around me as they tick, wink and twitch at my statement….Stares
Mental I say…My mind has a “mind” of it’s own…Strange as I sit an look at what goes on around me….Am I sane or insane…I say the Unicorns will tell me it’s okay….Unicorns is that what I said…..Yeah I said it..what’s wrong I believe in Unicorns..
Imagine the conversations I have with myself…It will blow your mind..Balance to Unbalance..
I only pay attention if I like you a lot, I just need balance is that to much to ask for.
Anxiety rules my life now, Depression is my friend now..No one knows…those close to me at least..What I go through…
The thoughts that cross my mind..END IT END IT…Noooooooo!!! I scream in fear of what I realize I’m telling myself to do…not so INSANE as I thought..
Do I need help…Anxiously….I mutter out…”It’s not worth ending….Phoenix you will be okay”…I fail to believe what I tell myself at times…is it what I want, or is it just an easy way out….WEAK..VULNERABLE…MISUNDERSTOOD…CONFUSED…NO NO NO NO
YOU..Yes you which is me… are not any of the above you will fight this…Anxiety is waking up worried about the day ahead ..it hasn’t even started yet…..BUT YOU WORRIED!!!! WHYYYYYYY!!!!
I try I do…anxiously I go through this life, my days, months and years..Misunderstood..or so I think..Anxiously I wait to be understood through all my madness.
Balance or Unbalanced…Anxiety is what balances me….